Friends of Faith & My New Boob
In the run up to surgery I told some key individuals about the cancer diagnosis. I had already known how important it was to insulate myself with positiveness, in the same way that carpet provides insulation for a room, helping to save energy- as it is an important contributor to the insulation of the indoor environment. Carpet insulates floors as it provides a psychological feeling of warmth.
Faith and prayer became my immediate insulation. Leaning into my faith caused my mind to be at peace. After speaking with Laurice Murphy- a long time family friend, she took my faith and understanding to a whole new level. Laurice set up a prayer vigil with someone dedicated to prayer for every hour that I was in surgery. She had specialists give instructions on which members of the medical team they should be praying for in relation to their duties concerning my care. As I read through the notes I feel an insulating warmth envelope my spirit, soul and body. I already knew the surgical team were good, but now my faith that God would order their hands was quadrupled.
The issue here is not really about my faith or belief, it’s more about what do you believe, when crisis comes to knock at your door? How do you pull yourself through? The night before surgery was actually a defining moment and reminds me of a parable told by Jesus, in the Gospel according to Mark (Chapter 2): Four friends wanted Jesus to heal their sick friend but because the crowd was thick they could not push their way through, so they decided to go via the roof. The four friends literally took the roof off the building in order to lower their friend via the roof into the presence of the healer. “When Jesus saw their active faith springing from confidence in Him. He said to the paralyzed man: “Son your sins are forgiven.” (Mark 2 verse 5 AMP). My family and friends are amazing.
Another group of my friends and relatives came to the house to pray and help me lift my faith. On this particular occasion I’m convinced I cried for 10mins but Patrick tells me it was more like 45mins – whatever the time-frame, again the real point here is – who are your friends?- Do they have the ability to speak life over your circumstances? Do your friends have the discerning ability to look past what the eyes can see?
Coming out of anaesthetic I was greeted with huge smiles from Patrick, the children, my mum and Desmond.
Lucy came to check my new boob – the DIEP Flap every 15mins to ensure the blood vessels had properly been connected and that I was managing my pain and using the catheter. All I really wanted was sea bass avocado, cherry tomatoes plus a side of spinach.
I recall running my right hand over the left side of my body. My new boob is bigger then the right one !!! Now I’m imbalanced!!!
I’m feeling sore.
I have 3 drains coming out of my body to take away excess fluid – plus a catheter.
Cannula in my veins, Morphine for pain relief.
This is not my life!!!!
I have a high pain threshold, so when the nurse told me she was taking the morphine away I managed to convince her to leave it to the morning “just in case”- although I have to admit I was scared. Nurse came back in the morning to detach the morphine, I was about to find another reason why it should stay until she explained “Claudine in 24 hours you could have pressed 45 shoots, you have pressed 9 – the lady on the ward used hers 38 times – you don’t need this!!!!” I am fully aware that everyone is on their own journey, but hearing this helped me manage my perspective.
I’m sharing this because I want you to get comfortable with checking your breasts (If you are a male check yours too because breast cancer doesn’t only affect women). Recognise what “normal” looks like so that you can be aware when things are abnormal. Cancer does not discriminate!) I know this to be true.